Turbulent times

 I'm on the other side of a terrible time. I basically had a break down due to personal issues at home. I never thought that would happen to me during my degree. I thought my life was fairly stable and nothing bad would happen but I reached a breaking point. The stress of uni and managing my work life, entering into a new relationship (it's difficult for me) and then having to deal with emotional abuse issues at home was too much. I also had a bad tutor which didn't help with one of the hardest (because it was so vague) assignments I've had, so I had to change my tutor and by then, it was a little too late. I contacted both of my tutors to inform them I was going through a bad time. I was so stressed, I couldn't think straight or focus. I was given an extension on one, but I managed to get myself back to a better place and pull my finger out to get my assignments out of the way.

On a positive note, my previous plan of working ahead worked and I kept to my schedule and felt considerably less stressed! The largest science assignment with three large parts was surprisingly the most straightforward and easiest to follow. I didn't have an issue with that and submitted it early. The other one was a social science essay related to counselling and I loathed every second of it. It got to a point where I felt I couldn't submit it. I managed to chuck a bunch of things together and submit it but I think I'll get a low score for it. Hopefully my science assignment will come back with a decent score.

Thanks to all the stress (alters brain chemistry and structure) and a brain predisposed to anxiety, it's brought back my feelings of anxiety and it's been quite damaging for me and my relationships. However, I spoke with my partner last night about how I was feeling and really opened up which made me feel a lot better. I'm seeing a doctor next week to hopefully nip this in the bud so I can get my head down and not let anxiety interfere again!

I'm now beginning to read the last books/chapters of my modules before our final assignments. I'm studying dementia now which I find interesting. I can't wait until summer break!