Hit a wall

The last few weeks have been inexplicably difficult for me. I had the vaccine at the beginning of January and that seemed to bring about additional side effects weeks on, though I think I'm passed them now. With a mixture of that, my poor health, the lack of exercise and the sun, working a bunch of weekends, I felt exhausted and honestly, depressed (I should probably try to go for a walk today).

It probably sounds ridiculous because even with a bit of weekend work, I only work about 25 hours a week, but I guess my health makes it a bit more complicated. :\ It's hard getting little sleep, going to work, often coming home tired and/or in pain and then having to sit down to focus on an assignment. I find that difficult. But if you add on 16-18 hours (apparently 20 for this module) of uni work to that, it all adds up! I've spent about 14 hours on my current assignment so far.

I was doing well mentally at the beginning of January, I felt very in control and optimistic. Then it gradually went downhill. I was having more bad days than good days, well didn't get one good day tbf. Every time I sat down to work on, imo a fairly straightforward assignment, I couldn't focus on it at all. It got to a point that it was becoming incredibly frustrating and I'd lost all motivation. Until the weekend just gone.

I had a short shift but I told myself this weekend I would do nothing but relax. Do what I enjoy. I blocked out the thought of uni and work and focused on relaxing. I should mention I was given a two week extension on this assignment which helped me so much to relax and heave a breather! I did crafts and played video games. I told myself that today and yesterday (I'm off work), I would use it for assignment work.

Well I did about 3 hours of assignment work and note taking yesterday! I was clear headed, determined and focused. All I needed was a break from everything and an extension to get my head back in the game. I am hoping to do a little more today before going back to work this week. Obviously, the later I leave it, the more uni work I have to catch up on which isn't fun! I hope I can stay in this better mindset for a little bit longer.